I just read few comments bout my previous post... thx anyone, for supporting me... =) and these few days, i found that sometimes my mind thinks bout past...
A question raised, "what can u get from looking back to your past?"
comparison... between the way you think and the way you look at something...
sigh*
i should "tide" up my mind 1st before i continue typing bout this...
and I'm just too sleepy & too tired to stay in front of my computer after a long-long working hour (8am-8pm) today...
To be continued....
-JeZz zzZZzzzZ.... -.-
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
To dump or being dumped...
Having chats with some friends might lead you to a topic u never thought before...
n i couldn't really tell why did I n my frens talk bout exes.. (does it spell like that?? i mean more than 1 ex here)...
well, we talked bout to dump or being dumped... in indonesian/english lesson i learned before, to dump means "mencampakkan" - as u're the subject (person) who done the dumping.... and being dumped means "dicampakkan" - u're the object (victim) of dumping... (OMG, i thk i need to learn english again now)...
if a relationship is broken, i guess, people will ask, who's the one asking for a break up?? doesn't it have the same meaning as "are you the one who dumped him/her?" and some will say "owh, i'm the one who asked..." or "i dumped him/her..." proudly...
why do u have to be proud of that???
what i'm thinking is to dump or being dumped are just leading you to a break up...
and it's called a break up because it is broken... agree???
Today, I just got to know... that my shitty ex slept with his new GF even before we broke up... (well, i call him ex coz he's shitty and sux... if he's not, i'll still call him as boyfren =p)
telling ya, i dun regret that i've loved u before... and i dun regret that we broke up...
n I feel much better without you now... =D
Go have a good life there and i'll have a much better one...
Have a good nite everyone...
-Jezz
n i couldn't really tell why did I n my frens talk bout exes.. (does it spell like that?? i mean more than 1 ex here)...
well, we talked bout to dump or being dumped... in indonesian/english lesson i learned before, to dump means "mencampakkan" - as u're the subject (person) who done the dumping.... and being dumped means "dicampakkan" - u're the object (victim) of dumping... (OMG, i thk i need to learn english again now)...
if a relationship is broken, i guess, people will ask, who's the one asking for a break up?? doesn't it have the same meaning as "are you the one who dumped him/her?" and some will say "owh, i'm the one who asked..." or "i dumped him/her..." proudly...
why do u have to be proud of that???
what i'm thinking is to dump or being dumped are just leading you to a break up...
and it's called a break up because it is broken... agree???
Today, I just got to know... that my shitty ex slept with his new GF even before we broke up... (well, i call him ex coz he's shitty and sux... if he's not, i'll still call him as boyfren =p)
telling ya, i dun regret that i've loved u before... and i dun regret that we broke up...
n I feel much better without you now... =D
Go have a good life there and i'll have a much better one...
Have a good nite everyone...
-Jezz
Saturday, August 8, 2009
...Untitled...
Finally, i got my weekend OFF!!! I was just sick of staying in the office, even during my weekend...
I dun really have a lot of tot to think about... well, even i'm thinking bout sumthing this moment, it's just the usual thing i used to think about... =p
Hmm... i seriously hate it when the memories of uni-life appears on my mind... it just 'drags' my tears out from my eyes... i can't understand.... WHY??? Why that city can be so meaningful for me...
I talked to Mk about things happened before... a small simple thing ever happened, could be so meaningful now... example: the time i spent with my frens walking on the street with the bloody heavy grocery shopping bags... or even just a short time sitting at McD/KFC/Subway, just for a quick meal... I miss to be there again... and saving money to get there next year...
Hopefully, i can... =) (i know, surely know that i need to stop shopping for that)
Listening to Dave Koz - I'll be there...
i repeat this song so many times these days... dunno why am i so into this song...
a great song by MJ... n played well by Dave Koz...
if before i always laughed when my mom listened to old song, well... i'm becoming like that now... old songs are good... LOL... (even old chinese songs sound good to me now)... XD
and nothing important to type anymore...
my mind is just too messy... >,<
a song for all of you, guys... ^^
"Biarkan saja kekasih mu pergi... teruskan saja mimpi yg tertunda...
Kita temukan tempat yg layak, sahabatku...
Kupercayakan langkah bersamamu, tak kuragukan berbagi denganmu...
Kita temukan tempat yg layak, sahabatku...
Kita mencari jati diri di tengah lautan mimpi...
Aku bernyanyi untuk sahabat... Aku berbagi untuk sahabat...
Kita bisa jika bersama...
Aku bernyanyi untuk sahabat... Aku berbagi untuk sahabat...
Kita bisa jika bersama....."
-Jezz
I dun really have a lot of tot to think about... well, even i'm thinking bout sumthing this moment, it's just the usual thing i used to think about... =p
Hmm... i seriously hate it when the memories of uni-life appears on my mind... it just 'drags' my tears out from my eyes... i can't understand.... WHY??? Why that city can be so meaningful for me...
I talked to Mk about things happened before... a small simple thing ever happened, could be so meaningful now... example: the time i spent with my frens walking on the street with the bloody heavy grocery shopping bags... or even just a short time sitting at McD/KFC/Subway, just for a quick meal... I miss to be there again... and saving money to get there next year...
Hopefully, i can... =) (i know, surely know that i need to stop shopping for that)
Listening to Dave Koz - I'll be there...
i repeat this song so many times these days... dunno why am i so into this song...
a great song by MJ... n played well by Dave Koz...
if before i always laughed when my mom listened to old song, well... i'm becoming like that now... old songs are good... LOL... (even old chinese songs sound good to me now)... XD
and nothing important to type anymore...
my mind is just too messy... >,<
a song for all of you, guys... ^^
"Biarkan saja kekasih mu pergi... teruskan saja mimpi yg tertunda...
Kita temukan tempat yg layak, sahabatku...
Kupercayakan langkah bersamamu, tak kuragukan berbagi denganmu...
Kita temukan tempat yg layak, sahabatku...
Kita mencari jati diri di tengah lautan mimpi...
Aku bernyanyi untuk sahabat... Aku berbagi untuk sahabat...
Kita bisa jika bersama...
Aku bernyanyi untuk sahabat... Aku berbagi untuk sahabat...
Kita bisa jika bersama....."
-Jezz
Monday, August 3, 2009
To give what u've received...
a short thought about the title i typed above...
To give what u've received...
well, to make it simpler... if we never received anything, means we don't have anything... If we dun have anything, means we can't give anything... Isn't it the rule???
then i try to connect this sequence to how to treat and to be treated...
is it possible, IF u're treated like "this" then u would treat someone else the way u've been treated???
i keep thinking about this since 2 hours ago... n not really sure about my answer for the question i just asked above...
I thk i need to sleep, better than keeping my mind spinning thking bout that thing... >,<
hv a gd nite everyone...
-Jezz
To give what u've received...
well, to make it simpler... if we never received anything, means we don't have anything... If we dun have anything, means we can't give anything... Isn't it the rule???
then i try to connect this sequence to how to treat and to be treated...
is it possible, IF u're treated like "this" then u would treat someone else the way u've been treated???
i keep thinking about this since 2 hours ago... n not really sure about my answer for the question i just asked above...
I thk i need to sleep, better than keeping my mind spinning thking bout that thing... >,<
hv a gd nite everyone...
-Jezz
Saturday, August 1, 2009
to a friend of mine...
Well, it's august now... sigh*
My precious July is already passed... sad stories at the beginning, but happy at the end...
being a 21 year old gal... people call it as mature age...
but, me myself isn't really sure that i'm mature enough to be 21... >,<
There are still many things i need to learn...
I just talked with a best friend of mine...
Was really happy to see u again at my bday celebration, mate... =)
well yeah, sumtimes i just never said to u that i miss u a lot...
staying close to u was great, seriously... we spent all together... fun, laugh, tears, works, etc...
having a companion during all the daily activity was just nice...
i told you so, that the days i spent without u around are just empty... (or am i too emotional about this???) yea, i used to see u everyday before, talking bout anything, helping each others, etc...
Here I'm crying... missing all the things we've spent together, my mate... listening to the songs we used to listen and sing together...
n u still said the words u always say to me whenever tears drop from my eyes, "just cry if u wanna cry..."
well, bout the song we talked before, i thk it has a part which is true... i type it here...
"Lucky to have been where i have been..."
Lucky to be there before, lucky to know you, lucky to learn how a real friendship supposed to be...
So close... So close... But still so far...
-Jezz
My precious July is already passed... sad stories at the beginning, but happy at the end...
being a 21 year old gal... people call it as mature age...
but, me myself isn't really sure that i'm mature enough to be 21... >,<
There are still many things i need to learn...
I just talked with a best friend of mine...
Was really happy to see u again at my bday celebration, mate... =)
well yeah, sumtimes i just never said to u that i miss u a lot...
staying close to u was great, seriously... we spent all together... fun, laugh, tears, works, etc...
having a companion during all the daily activity was just nice...
i told you so, that the days i spent without u around are just empty... (or am i too emotional about this???) yea, i used to see u everyday before, talking bout anything, helping each others, etc...
Here I'm crying... missing all the things we've spent together, my mate... listening to the songs we used to listen and sing together...
n u still said the words u always say to me whenever tears drop from my eyes, "just cry if u wanna cry..."
well, bout the song we talked before, i thk it has a part which is true... i type it here...
"Lucky to have been where i have been..."
Lucky to be there before, lucky to know you, lucky to learn how a real friendship supposed to be...
So close... So close... But still so far...
-Jezz
Thursday, July 16, 2009
The World I'm Living...
Happy July everyone...
I seriously never thought that time will run this fast, even faster then what i expected... >,< just few days passes since the end of June, but many things happened at once... Rest in peace, my be loved uncle... Me and everyone knows that this's not the way... all i can do is just say my prayer for you... Auntie and my 4 cousins... be tough... I know this could be the hardest part ever happened in your lives... Be sure, there will be better days... surely will... Having some talks with my mom during the beginning of this months about lotz of things, kindly makes me think... Well mom, we're both busy and almost dun have much time to talk, except when we're both in the same car... Mom, i know your u're not happy at your own bday this year although u got a bunch of red roses on ur bed as ur birthday surprise... U urself have your own problems and u're still thinking bout others... I just dun dare to tell u this, that sumtimes i dun feel that i'm a good daughter... Whenever u share ur feeling n thoughts to me, i just can listen... and give my opinions (i even not sure if it helps).. 2 days ago when i saw ur sad face and tears, i just can keep silent n got some pieces of tissue paper for you n teeling myself, "Dun cry, Jz"... and these are the words i never said to you: "u're the best" and i do love u so much... Listening to Britney's old song "Lucky", n caught the part: "She's so lucky, she's a star.. but she cry cry cry on her lonely heart thinking: if there's nothing missing in my life, why do this tears come at night?" well, i feel that lyrics is quite representing me at this moment... I'm not saying that i'm a star, but some people think that i got almost everything and i should be satisfied with what i have... sigh* Missing... that word... I dunno what... and i also can't be bothered to search... (so what do u wish to do, Jz?) Thinking about the world I'm living now... >,< Where people judge others from what they wear and how they look... Means, money rules everything... The world is just forcing u to be an up to date person, without any explanation on WTH the words "up to date" mean... I'm wondering, do i really care bout what others think about me??? about how do i look and what i wear??? i realize my self having such a high pride... it does make me think, am i wise enough in spending $$$??? i need to think more bout it... n seriously, i need to save up to make "my obsession" comes true... and i surely know that I CAN... Actually, I'm waiting for this long weekend... ^^
Today's quote: "Dun compare urself with others, coz we're all different..."
-Jezz
I seriously never thought that time will run this fast, even faster then what i expected... >,< just few days passes since the end of June, but many things happened at once... Rest in peace, my be loved uncle... Me and everyone knows that this's not the way... all i can do is just say my prayer for you... Auntie and my 4 cousins... be tough... I know this could be the hardest part ever happened in your lives... Be sure, there will be better days... surely will... Having some talks with my mom during the beginning of this months about lotz of things, kindly makes me think... Well mom, we're both busy and almost dun have much time to talk, except when we're both in the same car... Mom, i know your u're not happy at your own bday this year although u got a bunch of red roses on ur bed as ur birthday surprise... U urself have your own problems and u're still thinking bout others... I just dun dare to tell u this, that sumtimes i dun feel that i'm a good daughter... Whenever u share ur feeling n thoughts to me, i just can listen... and give my opinions (i even not sure if it helps).. 2 days ago when i saw ur sad face and tears, i just can keep silent n got some pieces of tissue paper for you n teeling myself, "Dun cry, Jz"... and these are the words i never said to you: "u're the best" and i do love u so much... Listening to Britney's old song "Lucky", n caught the part: "She's so lucky, she's a star.. but she cry cry cry on her lonely heart thinking: if there's nothing missing in my life, why do this tears come at night?" well, i feel that lyrics is quite representing me at this moment... I'm not saying that i'm a star, but some people think that i got almost everything and i should be satisfied with what i have... sigh* Missing... that word... I dunno what... and i also can't be bothered to search... (so what do u wish to do, Jz?) Thinking about the world I'm living now... >,< Where people judge others from what they wear and how they look... Means, money rules everything... The world is just forcing u to be an up to date person, without any explanation on WTH the words "up to date" mean... I'm wondering, do i really care bout what others think about me??? about how do i look and what i wear??? i realize my self having such a high pride... it does make me think, am i wise enough in spending $$$??? i need to think more bout it... n seriously, i need to save up to make "my obsession" comes true... and i surely know that I CAN... Actually, I'm waiting for this long weekend... ^^
Today's quote: "Dun compare urself with others, coz we're all different..."
-Jezz
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Waiting for Sunday...
Thinking what should i type here,
since i haven't got my internet at home, it's kinda hard for me to update my blog...
not even blog, my facebook account as well... T___T
I'm waiting for this sunday... Yayyy....
(HM, i thk u know what am i so excited bout this sunday.. lol)
went out for a high school reunion last saturday...
well, seems there're some people i dun know well...
but, i thk it's good to see each other again after years...
Al, u should've come... lol...
anyway, weeks by weeks passes so fast...
n it'll be july in one eye blink... i thk july won't be a bad month,
yea.. if i look at my diary, my weekends in july is FULLY BOOKED...
first weekend for mom's bday,
2nd weekend for you, Dj...
3rd weekend for Mr. J...
n 4th weekend... my bday... (for all of you who has confirmed to come to my bday celebration, i'll inform u guys with the time and venue)
counting the weekends, it's just short... hahaha... (dun count the working hours from monday to friday, or i'll be dying soon)
Mk, heard that u're feeling unwell...
get well soon, mate... eat well n hv enough rest here... (while u're here without any school timetables)
see how it goes, i'm planning to visit u n ur sista... so, GET WELL!!! =p
Ir, who's fighting with her best for her final task... gambatte...
just few days left, then u'll be free...
i just read ur blog today, Al.. sorry for being late reading it, i did explain to you...
i still hvn't got my internet at home... T____T
Well, back to what we've talked about before, about readiness...
u seriously need to thk bout that too, mate... n plz dun risk urself for sumthing "unpredictable"...
n you... whoever you are... LOL...
i feel so much better after i told u everything i was thinking about before...
hmm... it's just nice to talk to an old friend again, after years of lost contact...
tell u one thing, u dun need to worry, coz i'm protecting myself well... hahahaha...
n i told u so, i wanna be single till the next 2 years... lalalalala... =p
Today's quote:
"the more u worry or scared of sumthing, the more chances for it to happen in your life... so, LET IT BE..."
-JeZz
since i haven't got my internet at home, it's kinda hard for me to update my blog...
not even blog, my facebook account as well... T___T
I'm waiting for this sunday... Yayyy....
(HM, i thk u know what am i so excited bout this sunday.. lol)
went out for a high school reunion last saturday...
well, seems there're some people i dun know well...
but, i thk it's good to see each other again after years...
Al, u should've come... lol...
anyway, weeks by weeks passes so fast...
n it'll be july in one eye blink... i thk july won't be a bad month,
yea.. if i look at my diary, my weekends in july is FULLY BOOKED...
first weekend for mom's bday,
2nd weekend for you, Dj...
3rd weekend for Mr. J...
n 4th weekend... my bday... (for all of you who has confirmed to come to my bday celebration, i'll inform u guys with the time and venue)
counting the weekends, it's just short... hahaha... (dun count the working hours from monday to friday, or i'll be dying soon)
Mk, heard that u're feeling unwell...
get well soon, mate... eat well n hv enough rest here... (while u're here without any school timetables)
see how it goes, i'm planning to visit u n ur sista... so, GET WELL!!! =p
Ir, who's fighting with her best for her final task... gambatte...
just few days left, then u'll be free...
i just read ur blog today, Al.. sorry for being late reading it, i did explain to you...
i still hvn't got my internet at home... T____T
Well, back to what we've talked about before, about readiness...
u seriously need to thk bout that too, mate... n plz dun risk urself for sumthing "unpredictable"...
n you... whoever you are... LOL...
i feel so much better after i told u everything i was thinking about before...
hmm... it's just nice to talk to an old friend again, after years of lost contact...
tell u one thing, u dun need to worry, coz i'm protecting myself well... hahahaha...
n i told u so, i wanna be single till the next 2 years... lalalalala... =p
Today's quote:
"the more u worry or scared of sumthing, the more chances for it to happen in your life... so, LET IT BE..."
-JeZz
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