Reunion Day...

As planned, I'm going to have a gathering with my primary school friends... I called it as Jakarta Reunion, September 2009... I'm kinda excited, coz some of us are separated around 9 years without meeting each others... as everyone knows, Jess is a well-planned person... but, this time, i planned well for the reunion (as i'm the event organizer) but I DUNNO WHAT TO WEAR... i saw my wardrobe, inside has many many clothes... but, i can't decide which one i should wear... realizing that most of them are outdoor outfits I used to wear in Melbourne before... and it's a BIG NO to wear them for a reunion... >,<


Anw, i dreamed bout sumthing really bad yesterday nite...
here's the story... I was in the plane, with some of my friends.. I walked along the aisle and wished to sit with my others friends.. there're just 3 seats in a row near the right side window, and 2 of them were taken... just 1 left near the aisle... and i decided to sit there... but, i found that the safety belt's broken at that seat... so, i moved to the row in front... i tighten my safety belt n tried to sleep... but, suddenly announced that the plane is crashed and need emergency landing... WTH! the emergency landing failed... plane just fell... n i saw some of my friends died... Aiyaaa... hate that dream!


It's just 6 a.m now...
think i'm going to bed again for another 1-2 hours sleep...


-Jezz

Things happened...

I just can't understand the things happened at once within this 24 hours...

at 1st... would say thank you so much to Av & Dj for listening to me...

Shocking nite... well yea... i thk i dun need to mentioned what happened last nite...

Good to know that, mate... and thank you for that...

I hope nothing would change, as we agreed to put this friendship above anything else...

Like what I've told ya.. to like/love sum1 isn't a sin, isn't a mistake...

Dun be scared of me running away from you only because of that... see, i'm still myself as usual.. =D

Another thing this morning...

Can u imagine that i dropped tears in the office while my boss was here??? >,<

I hate being in a fight, especially with a best friend of mine...

and what i'm wondering now, "what am i for you???"

do i complain if u call me early in the morning or late at nite?? or do i complain if u share ur thoughts and feelings with me???

or u think that i dun care bout u... IDK... i just have no clue for that right now...

never thought that u can be that short-minded till u said u're not going to contact me anymore, n how shallow ur point of view about how a friendship is... n again WHAT AM I FOR YOU??? a friend??? or just a person u look for while u have noone to talk to???

IDK... IDK... it's up to u...

U should know that i care about you, and i do... My friend...

Done...

I have a pile of works waiting to be done...

-Jezz

09-09-09

Morning!

A good combination number of today's date... =D

makes me remember what's happened 2 years ago.. OMG... 2 years... passed faster than i thought... Okay, for those who dunno, 2 years ago (09-09-07) was the day my ex asked me to be his gf... Hahaha... at 9 pm as well...

i bet most of you will ask, why do i still need to remember that date while 2 us are broke up... =p

IDK, i just like the number...

Well guys (dedicated to anyone), i just wanna clarify... that I'M SINGLE but NOT AVAILABLE... and planning to be SINGLE for the next 2 years (except if Kingone or Zac Efron likes me - keep dreaming jess! SLAP*)...

So, I dun have any interest to date anyone right now...

all i expect is FRIENDSHIP...

I hope this's clear enough... I dun talk love... I dun talk like... but I do admire and appreciate some people around me...

Okay, enough for this morning... I'm rushing out to prepare myself to go to work...

Today's Quote:

"A lover comes and goes... but good friends stay forever..."

-Jezz

September

Happy September everyone.. =D

I'm hoping this september will be greater than the other months passed...

not only for me, but for all of you too...

I heard some good piano plays today... i dunno if it was just me who's too sensitive or what, but i could tell those songs are played by heart... and i really miss that sound...

I'm not telling where i heard those piano plays... so, if u really wanna hear, go search for it... LOL!

Having a long talk in MSN with a friend of mine last nite...

good to be the place u can share ur feeling n thought, mate...

and nice to be the one u really trust...

and, to be honest, sumtimes i just wonder what kind of relationship we're having...

not really sure if u're thinking about that, but... better dun... hahaha...

i just wanna enjoy the friendship we're having now... coz it's PRECIOUS!

Maybe enough for today...

I'm going to bed soon with my beloved Dudut & Elliot... XD

today's quote:

"a good friend is the one who appreciates your behaviour more than the way you look..."

-Jezz

We are the champion!

I slept around 3.30 last nite... as i finished up reading my book...

around 2, i felt bad... i never let my light on till that late... (though sumtimes i stay late, i just turn on my table lamp)... what i felt is... hmm.. i didn't feel like i was staying in my own room... the atmosphere was just so different... and reminded me about a room i used to stay before... sigh*

I thk i really need relaxing vacation to get my mind refreshed... >,<

When people said the biggest enemy for us is ourselves...

I thought about that just now...

and YES YES YES, it' true... why is it called enemy???

enemy is something destructive or injurious in its effects ... we call ourselves as enemy coz we're the one who control ourselves...

seems my statement isn't clear enough...

okay.. it's like this...

we won't be hurt by someone else if we're not letting ourselves to be hurt....

we won't fail if we're not letting ourselves to be fail...

it's just the matter of controlling everything... how to control strategies, efforts, etc...

well ya, i know that to say it out is much much easier than to do it....

but, why dun we give a try???

to kill those "enemy" factors in ourselves is one of the key... kill the laziness, selfishness, etc...

If we can beat ourselves, it means WE ARE THE CHAMPION in our own lives...

Anw, dun ask me why did i type those things above... it just came out from my mind suddenly...

Al, do agree with you...

Quote: "Things that are sweet can be bitter... Things that are too sweet can kill..."

-Jezz

what my birthday said about me...

Jesslyn..

July 25th, 1988...

You are Silver Elephant, who gives an impression of being pure and innocent...

You are not pretentious and are very straight forward type of woman...
You tend to lack sweet sensitivity...
Instead you possess strong will power and resolute attitude...
You are a hard worker, and will not depend on others...
You are a person who steadily puts effort...
You think high of rationalism, and hence, lacks softness...
Economically, you are precise and sound...
You will not spend money on impulse...
Although you don't show, you are actually a person with pride, and tend to be upright and little bit short tempered...
You may act more maturely than your age, or more childish at times...
This unbalance tends to be your attraction...
You are very independent sort of person, and will not dare think to rely on men.
You therefore try to take control of things...
You can very well take lead of men, and have a skill of not showing that...
Profit and efficiency is very important to you...
You tend to choose your hobbies on that as well...
Even after you get married, you wouldn't be turned by houseworks, and in fact will carry out it efficiently...
You will take great interest in your children's education, and will turn out to be a good mother and a wife...

Why are you complaining???

I feel that I have sumthing that i have to speak out...
But myself doesn't find, what's that thing exactly...

I was talking about "LIFE is about making memories" in my previous post...
and that's what i'm thinking about...
Living in this world for 21 years, there must be lots of memories created, remembering 21 years isn't a short time to pass...
But unfortunately, my mind isn't a good database to remember all the things happened..
while i still can remember clearly some other things, even with the details...

I'm pretty sure that all of you agree with the statement "Jess complains too much"...
hmm... it's almost half a year i stay here (Jakarta)... I never thought of staying in this big-super-crowded city... and guess what, i dun feel alive here... (doesn't mean i'm dead as well) coz everything is just inconvenience here... sigh*
Okay, Jess... STOP COMPLAINING!!!
Look at yourself, and be thankful for what you have now...
You even live in a much better way compared to some others...
and why do you keep complaining??? Slap*

Am i feeling lonely???
I guess so... I got many many friends out there.. But none of them are around me...
and some are separated by seas & oceans...
it seems like I'm depending my life on a thing called 'INTERNET'...
I miss all the time we spent together, guys...

I think I will drag my brother out to get frozen yogurt or ice cream to cheer me up... Hope i feel better after that, coz i'm about to cry...
Al, Mk, Dj, HM, n many others...
I miss you all so much...
Luv ya...

-Jezz