will you still call them friends??

Have you ever found that somebody's acting superior towards you because (s)he thinks that (s)he can do much better than you in everything?? I repeat it again, in EVERYTHING... Then talk about your weaknesses out loud in the group discussions or in front of your friends??
Have you ever found that somebody doesn't appreciate what you've done to him/her by not saying anything, not even the simple "thanks" word?? Somebody who doesn't have any initiative to start a chat with you without you being the person who starts it... Even if you start the chat, you frequently get his/her ignorance... 
Have you ever found that somebody's acting childish while (s)he thinks that (s)he's mature enough so s(he) keeps correcting you to act in the way s(he) thinks is right... 
These people are around me and I am still treat them nicely whenever they come to me... Now I'm asking you, for how long you can stand this kind of friendship?? 
If I'm typing this at the moment, that means I fed up with those kinda people around me... 
I guess, Vd was right when he told me that friendship is about benefits... If your friends are just harming you or just taking the benefits from you, it would be better to be called as a parasitism other than a friendship...


-Jezz

hometown

Time passes really slowly in my hometown... I feel like I've been here for weeks at the 4th day... 
The weather isn't really bad here, it's kinda cold in the morning and raining everyday... 
Hometown + rain... Remind me about someone who was here almost a year ago, the one who's not close to me anymore... It sounds sad, huh? Hahaha... Life is about making memories and people live in their own memories thou... =D
I'm happy to be here... Being surrounded by lovely people and good food is just nice... I still have another 3 happy days to spend here... Enjoy, Jess!!!


-Jezz

farewell

I woke up around 2.45 am today and got my self prepared to go to the airport... 

Here're the last pics I took with my 2 lovely cousins before they left:

Look at my sleepless and crying face... T__T

I promised them something... I hope I could make it true next year... 

I miss both of them already... 

-Jezz
*feel like to cry again now... sigh*

Hello September

Hello September... Hello Idul Fitri...
I can't believe it's September again... I feel like January was just yesterday...


Something that happened last September is still fresh on my mind... You might not remember what it is exactly, perhaps... Then this September is going to be so much different compared to the passed one because we're not longer close to each other... I feel awkward talking to you lately... I do miss the time when we could talk and share anything freely, the time when I could call you whenever I wanted to... 


I might seem like a heartless one sometimes... The feelings I've been hiding inside are starting to kill me...
Just like a building, it takes time to be built and just takes few seconds to be demolished... Then the wreckages of the building will remain there...

My two cousins are leaving to the states tomorrow... My tears are dropping at the time I typed this...

I hate seeing people leaving without knowing when to see them again... 

-Jezz

to help us grow

I'm not an angel who's able to forgive any mistake done by others nor an evil who keeps every single grudge inside my heart... 
Being disappointed isn't nice, everybody knows it... But, keeping the disappointment inside isn't healthy as well... 
People are full of trespasses, including you and me... I'm sorry for the harsh words I said and my ignorance to you... 
There're still chances for us to learn what life teaches us... to help us grow... to help us grow...


-Jezz

Replay

After paying extra attention to the lyrics of this song (the original's by Iyaz, but I prefer Legaci's cover):





There're thoughts raised in my mind... It's been a while since the time when I was treated really well by a man... I said, a MAN, not a BOY... A man who knows how to treat a woman, who has the ability to make the woman he loves to feel beautiful and precious...
I sort of miss the way my ex treated me... He's not a romantic guy, he never bought me flowers or sang any love song to me, but his attitude impressed me... He was the one who proudly shouted out loud to his new friends that he had a gf named Jesslyn when he moved to another city for study... He was the one who let me be myself, he never tried to change me... Well, he's still a good friend of mine until now anyway, we still share story to each other... =)
Other than that, I remember Ir told me to find a guy who can sing this song for me or at least treat me this way (I don't mine if it's Christian Bautista - he's just adoreable - lol):





I might sound desperate in this post... What I'm sharing here is just my thought about how I miss to be treated well as a woman and I just haven't found anybody who can treat me that way yet...
Alright, done for today, I'm going out for pancake soon... =)
Have a great weekend, everyone!!


-Jezz

Life after graduation

I heard people screaming that they want to graduate from the university as soon as they can... I did the same too when I was in the university 2 years ago... The excuses of I-am-sick-of-projects, I-hate-exams, I-don't-like-this-subject, and many others make people (including me) think that life would be so much better after graduation, so there'll be no more exams, projects, papers, essays, or so whatever... 

Truth: life after graduation sucks... university life is so much easier... 

Well, I'm not trying to frighten anyone of you here... The only thing we need to worry about as students is: how to pass all the subject... Then once we graduate, there are more things we need to worry about: what kind of job I want to get? how many companies I should send my resume to? how if I don't get the job? how if I can't perform good in my first job? how to manage the salary so I can save some? and many more I can't even mention one by one... 

For those who complain about school projects, you should be glad that once your project is submitted (by the end of semester), that means you're done... You wouldn't find this situation anymore after graduation, projects seem to be never ending without time limit (there's no such thing as end-of-semester when you start working) and they usually come overlapped... The worse thing is: you won't have as many holiday as you have in university... 
I'm the first person who graduated among my friends... Now, I'm really (not kind of anymore) sick of my job and now trying to set up my own business or searching for another job... Well, I'm not going to crab so much about my job here as it wouldn't pull me out from that situation... 
Good luck for everyone who's just done with Uni life and now starting to jump into the real life...


-Jezz