#prayformyself

After praying for this country and for the world, why don't I pray for myself and be a little bit selfish?? 
To be really honest, I'm kind off lost lately... I spent my time in my office doing less thing (or even nothing)... The more I stay on my desk, the more interests gone... Well ya, I'm just not into my job... Sigh*
I know I shouldn't have complained too much about this since looking for an appropriate job isn't that easy nowadays... 
Wondering what I really want to do, I can't tell it... When somebody asked me about my dream specifically, I kept my mouth shouted and thought about it for a while because I dun have a prompt answer for the question being asked... 
Talking about the word "multi-talented", once again I'm going to tell everybody, I'm not as awesome as what they see from the outside... There're thoughts on my mind with the possibilities to explode my brain... 
Having too many interests kills me... Yes, it does... I can't really focus on what I really want to do because I like doing all of them and I easily get bored of something...
God, lead my way...


-Jezz

#prayfortheworld

"People killin', people dyin'... Children hurt and hear them cryin'...
Can you practice what you preach? And would you turn the other cheek?
Father, Father, Father help us, send us some guidance from above...
Cause people got me, got me questionin'... Where is the love??"
(Where is the love - Black Eyed Peas)


Knowing the war between North and South Korea makes me think for a while... What's wrong with the people on earth??? Don't they love to live peacefully?? Or attacking another country is a way to show how powerful a country is?? I just don't get it... 
While realizing that myself is just a small dot on this earth who's hoping to live peacefully and happily, I can only pray for the world to be a better place to live... 





-Jezz

#PrayForIndonesia - RKB

After thus long being lonely, I finally found awesome people to share my time with (people who have the same interests with me)... Being in charge in a social group isn't as bad as I thought... I thank God for being a part of RKB... Maybe for some people it sounds silly since it's just an online community... But, the fact is: there're good people there... =)


It's really sad to see disasters hitting this country... Seems like the universe gets mad on the people and sweeps them away by shaking the land... While there's nothing much to do other than giving a hand for the people who are hit by the disasters, I got the idea of making a song cover to show solidarity and sympathy... The appreciation from other RKB members for the idea is huge... Thank you, guys... The idea would be just an idea without your supports... =)
With the hope that there'll be more donations given, let me share the video here:





-Jezz
#prayforindonesia

I Look to You

Dear God...
I know I've been leaving You for IDK how long... Now I understand why people who are busy rarely talk to You... They are too busy doing whatsoever till they can't spend few minutes just to talk to You, and unfortunately I am one of them... Have mercy on me... 
In this road called life, I've been complaining a lot about how everything that happened to me isn't the ones I wished to happen... I know I'm not supposed to do that...
I looked outside my window, I saw people passing and I started to think: their lives aren't any better than mine...
Teach me how to be grateful... 





I just had a short talk with my parents... My dad told me that his friend got stroke few days ago, so then his family paid a private jet to send him to Singapore to get better medical treatments... Because the doctors there couldn't do much to save his life, they sent him back to Jakarta in comma condition... He is now depending his breath on Oxygen mask... There's nothing can save him, so his family has decided to remove the Oxygen mask tonight, after 12 am...
Be tough, for his family... May you rest in peace, uncle...


Life is the most precious gift given by God... I promise myself to live better and better as the time goes...
God, have mercy on me...


-Jezz

middle of October

It's been a while since my last post... I do have many things on my mind to be shared, but I was too lazy to put them in words... 
To a friend of mine, I guess I've done the right thing... I don't want any misunderstanding between us... 
As I told you, I'm happy to have your companion... In a way, I'm kinda jealous with you... Why?? Because I don't have the life you have, fulfilled by bunch of friends everyday... I have to admit that I'm kinda lonely here since most of my friends are overseas... Maybe I should change my point of view about your friends, they're not as bad as I thought... Hope they wouldn't mind if sometimes I join them... =)
*sorry*


Another thing, I feel bad that I didn't have much time to accompany my grandma when she came... At the time I saw her, I kept silent, didn't know what to talk about... So then I kept myself busy with my computer, which I regret a lot till now... I thought she would still be here till weekend, so I can bring her out... But unfortunately, she went back last thursday and left some money for me that made me feel even worse... I called her to say thank you and told her not to give me money anymore coz I already have my own job...
Sometimes, it's really hard for me to make any move just to let someone I love knows that I love him/her so much, not even in words... sigh*
I talked to my bro this morning about this, he asked me to go visit my grandma during weekend... So ya... I'm planning for that... 


Alright, I'm done... I'm going to watch movie in premiere studio tonight with my best friend... *excited*
Have a nice weekend, everyone!


-Jezz

October Wish

I saw what I've been fantasying about in my dream last night, a dream that perfectly made me to stay silent this whole day...
Dear October, could you please help me to make that dream comes true?? It's the only wish I have for you...
Though I know it's really impossible, keep on wishing isn't a sin, right??


-Jezz

eat - pray - gym

Why it's 'gym' instead of 'love'??

I just follow my friend's BBM status... He put it that way... hahaha...

Congrats for the commencement, buddy... All the best for your next steps... Will miss you a lot....

Alright, where's the 'love'??

I'm actually in this situation, just the same like last year... Being the frozen-hearted one...

I have to admit that loneliness kills me sometimes... I could imagine how nice it could be to have someone next to me, since my past relationships are LDR... But, being with somebody is something I'm not ready for at the moment...  

Then, what's with the 'gym'??

Since I'm staying over at shop during weekdays, I have nothing to do at night time... So that I decided to spend 3-4 times in a week for exercising at the gym, trying to keep myself fit... That's it, no other reason... Hahaha...

a song to share, I'm totally in love with this song:

-Jezz