I Look to You

Dear God...
I know I've been leaving You for IDK how long... Now I understand why people who are busy rarely talk to You... They are too busy doing whatsoever till they can't spend few minutes just to talk to You, and unfortunately I am one of them... Have mercy on me... 
In this road called life, I've been complaining a lot about how everything that happened to me isn't the ones I wished to happen... I know I'm not supposed to do that...
I looked outside my window, I saw people passing and I started to think: their lives aren't any better than mine...
Teach me how to be grateful... 





I just had a short talk with my parents... My dad told me that his friend got stroke few days ago, so then his family paid a private jet to send him to Singapore to get better medical treatments... Because the doctors there couldn't do much to save his life, they sent him back to Jakarta in comma condition... He is now depending his breath on Oxygen mask... There's nothing can save him, so his family has decided to remove the Oxygen mask tonight, after 12 am...
Be tough, for his family... May you rest in peace, uncle...


Life is the most precious gift given by God... I promise myself to live better and better as the time goes...
God, have mercy on me...


-Jezz

middle of October

It's been a while since my last post... I do have many things on my mind to be shared, but I was too lazy to put them in words... 
To a friend of mine, I guess I've done the right thing... I don't want any misunderstanding between us... 
As I told you, I'm happy to have your companion... In a way, I'm kinda jealous with you... Why?? Because I don't have the life you have, fulfilled by bunch of friends everyday... I have to admit that I'm kinda lonely here since most of my friends are overseas... Maybe I should change my point of view about your friends, they're not as bad as I thought... Hope they wouldn't mind if sometimes I join them... =)
*sorry*


Another thing, I feel bad that I didn't have much time to accompany my grandma when she came... At the time I saw her, I kept silent, didn't know what to talk about... So then I kept myself busy with my computer, which I regret a lot till now... I thought she would still be here till weekend, so I can bring her out... But unfortunately, she went back last thursday and left some money for me that made me feel even worse... I called her to say thank you and told her not to give me money anymore coz I already have my own job...
Sometimes, it's really hard for me to make any move just to let someone I love knows that I love him/her so much, not even in words... sigh*
I talked to my bro this morning about this, he asked me to go visit my grandma during weekend... So ya... I'm planning for that... 


Alright, I'm done... I'm going to watch movie in premiere studio tonight with my best friend... *excited*
Have a nice weekend, everyone!


-Jezz

October Wish

I saw what I've been fantasying about in my dream last night, a dream that perfectly made me to stay silent this whole day...
Dear October, could you please help me to make that dream comes true?? It's the only wish I have for you...
Though I know it's really impossible, keep on wishing isn't a sin, right??


-Jezz