eat - pray - gym

Why it's 'gym' instead of 'love'??

I just follow my friend's BBM status... He put it that way... hahaha...

Congrats for the commencement, buddy... All the best for your next steps... Will miss you a lot....

Alright, where's the 'love'??

I'm actually in this situation, just the same like last year... Being the frozen-hearted one...

I have to admit that loneliness kills me sometimes... I could imagine how nice it could be to have someone next to me, since my past relationships are LDR... But, being with somebody is something I'm not ready for at the moment...  

Then, what's with the 'gym'??

Since I'm staying over at shop during weekdays, I have nothing to do at night time... So that I decided to spend 3-4 times in a week for exercising at the gym, trying to keep myself fit... That's it, no other reason... Hahaha...

a song to share, I'm totally in love with this song:

-Jezz

will you still call them friends??

Have you ever found that somebody's acting superior towards you because (s)he thinks that (s)he can do much better than you in everything?? I repeat it again, in EVERYTHING... Then talk about your weaknesses out loud in the group discussions or in front of your friends??
Have you ever found that somebody doesn't appreciate what you've done to him/her by not saying anything, not even the simple "thanks" word?? Somebody who doesn't have any initiative to start a chat with you without you being the person who starts it... Even if you start the chat, you frequently get his/her ignorance... 
Have you ever found that somebody's acting childish while (s)he thinks that (s)he's mature enough so s(he) keeps correcting you to act in the way s(he) thinks is right... 
These people are around me and I am still treat them nicely whenever they come to me... Now I'm asking you, for how long you can stand this kind of friendship?? 
If I'm typing this at the moment, that means I fed up with those kinda people around me... 
I guess, Vd was right when he told me that friendship is about benefits... If your friends are just harming you or just taking the benefits from you, it would be better to be called as a parasitism other than a friendship...


-Jezz

hometown

Time passes really slowly in my hometown... I feel like I've been here for weeks at the 4th day... 
The weather isn't really bad here, it's kinda cold in the morning and raining everyday... 
Hometown + rain... Remind me about someone who was here almost a year ago, the one who's not close to me anymore... It sounds sad, huh? Hahaha... Life is about making memories and people live in their own memories thou... =D
I'm happy to be here... Being surrounded by lovely people and good food is just nice... I still have another 3 happy days to spend here... Enjoy, Jess!!!


-Jezz

farewell

I woke up around 2.45 am today and got my self prepared to go to the airport... 

Here're the last pics I took with my 2 lovely cousins before they left:

Look at my sleepless and crying face... T__T

I promised them something... I hope I could make it true next year... 

I miss both of them already... 

-Jezz
*feel like to cry again now... sigh*

Hello September

Hello September... Hello Idul Fitri...
I can't believe it's September again... I feel like January was just yesterday...


Something that happened last September is still fresh on my mind... You might not remember what it is exactly, perhaps... Then this September is going to be so much different compared to the passed one because we're not longer close to each other... I feel awkward talking to you lately... I do miss the time when we could talk and share anything freely, the time when I could call you whenever I wanted to... 


I might seem like a heartless one sometimes... The feelings I've been hiding inside are starting to kill me...
Just like a building, it takes time to be built and just takes few seconds to be demolished... Then the wreckages of the building will remain there...

My two cousins are leaving to the states tomorrow... My tears are dropping at the time I typed this...

I hate seeing people leaving without knowing when to see them again... 

-Jezz