Money Talks...

Had a long chat with Al this morning talking about few things... and we talked about money rules on earth... 

i heard some people said "money isn't important, the most important thing is LOVE... when you are loved, u'll be happy..."

Of course, being loved by others makes us happy... but, try to see the fact (it's not that i'm materialistic), if you only have love without money, how would you be happy?? imagine that u're marrying sum1 you love and loves you and both of you dun have enough money for daily needs, would you be happy in the condition like that???

another fact... money has became the most important factor of anything... i remember when i was applying university to Australia before, they asked for money deposit (i can't really remember the amount, but i can tell, it's huge) just to get my student visa issued... 

I'm just thinking when money rules the world, some part of life would be just unfair... Seriously, I saw many people around me who couldn't reach what they want, not because they're not able to reach it, but the economic conditions burden them... while some other rich kids are just spending their parents' money for such unimportant stuffs... 

n Al said "if i have that much money, i dun mind to lend it to them", but he can do nothing... and i can do nothing to help as well besides being a place for them to share with...

I still need to learn how to be wise... 

I should stop complaining about things i have... 

I should be thankful for everything i get... 

a quote from a song:

"... but I gotta keep trying... gotta keep my head held high... there's always gonna be another mountain.. i'm always gonna wanna make it move... always gonna be a uphill battle... sometimes i'm gonna have to lose... ain't about how fast i get there... ain't about what's waiting on the other side... it's the climb..."

-Jezz

...laziness....

So sleepy.... it's just 6.20 a.m and it's saturday... i hope i could sleep a little bit longer, but i need to go to work for overtime today... >,<


I'm going to pick up Ls... Yayyy!!! I miss her so much, since the latest time i met her is last December... =D


Anw, good to have a clearance last night... i hope u feel better, mate... and really sorry if it's disappointed you, coz i can do nothing else than being honest... 


I need to shower now, prepare myself to work... n still, i'm too lazy for that... T___T
Have a good weekend everyone!


-Jezz

Imagine....

Today is the 1st day working after a 6 days Idul Fitri holiday... i went to office this morning with a "high-level-laziness" ... was surprised with extra work loads and finished at 7.37 p.m... think same schedule would be the same or even worse till the end of this month... i really wish October to come soon... >,<

I'm kinda addicted to record my singing voice and post it to FB... hahaha... celebrity obsession.. =p

but, i just enjoy when people like the way I sing and drop their comments... so i can learn from mistakes i done in singing.... =D Mk n Mn... Let's arrange some songs together... 

I'm practicing a song requested by a friend of mine now, a song i never heard before... but, i think i'm going to love this song:

"I just want to breathe again... Learn to face the joy and pain... Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more... I just wanna face the day, forget about the woes of yesterday... Maybe if i hope a little, try a little more, I'll breathe again..."

"When the closest ones are faraway...."

those words popped out in my mind suddenly when i was showering before... realizing my closest friends are far far away from me... no matter who they are, they are all faraway... then i'm trying to imagine, how would it be if they're around... would we stay closer than before?? or maybe we have nothing to talk anymore since we spend all time together??? IDK how would it be... i just can IMAGINE...

i miss all the time i spent with all of you, guys... 

I start to yawn now... i better go to sleep soon as i'm going to have another tiring day tomorrow...

-Jezz

Idul Fitri 2009

Happy Idul Fitri for anyone who celebrates it... =D


i hate being sick... i should be in Puncak now, with my whole family... 
But this pain is killing me till i have to stay at home, and unfortunately my sickness disappointed my little cousin... sorry for that, sista... i hope to be there as well, not being left alone at home like now... >,<


i think my brain is going to explode soon... i have so many things on my mind... (even unimportant things)
and i dunno how to say it out... see? a talkative Jess doesn't know how to express what're she's thinking about...
IDK.. i dun feel like doing anything... i dun feel like planning anything...
and everything is mixed up in my mind.... sigh*


for everyone talked to me before, sorry for not giving a really good response...
me, myself doesn't really understand what's happening to me... 
really sorry... 


-Jezz  

Frozen...

I talked to a junior last night, she told me that she's in love with someone...
seems that she's really happy with her feeling...
What I'm wondering now is... how does it feel to fall in love again?? how would it be to date someone??
I have no clue for that... It's not that I never fall in love or dating someone, but I can't really remember or imagine how does it feel like... 
It doesn't mean I'm heartless, but... I'm just thinking that my heart is just frozen for that stuffs...
Nvm, it's just a short thought of mine this morning...
and I'm happy for being single now... =D


-Jezz

Moving to the USA???

Good evening, readers... 
I will just type some thoughts here, about what I've discussed with mom before...


Mom was thinking to send me to the USA... not around this moment, but within this 1-2 years... 
I never thought of moving to USA before, but, it seems interesting to me... 
Hopefully, it might come true... 
Living in Australia for 2 years was a great experience... and now I'm imagining how would it be to live in another part of world while I'm still young and free (actually, i'm not that young anymore)...


a quote for today:
"People set the plans, God makes the decision..."


-Jezz

The Reunion.... Super-tired mode...

Finally I can have free times after the tiring reunion preparation, event and the documentation... hahaha...
I need to tell everyone, that's the second happiest time i passed in this year after my bday last July... =D


Here's the story.. begins with a group called SDK Immanuel Ptk - Class of 2000 which I created in Facebook...
Ir & I planned for the reunion, search for appropriate venue, and started to invite our ex-schoolmates...
Realizing to contact people who're separated for 9 years isn't easy... but we made it... =D around 20 friends joined this reunion.. though it wasn't a big event, but, it's WELL DONE!! we had lots of fun... we shared story and we laughed... and we stay closer than before... (now I'm confuse looking at my Facebook notification for photos comments and tags - got more than 300 notifications since last night)

The Souvenirs... 

(Photo by Ivan Haryono)

All of us....

The members of SDK Immanuel Pontianak...

Class of 2000...

This whole day, i dun feel like doing anything... I'm super-tired...
especially my legs... as i wore my 8cms stiletto whole day yesterday... >,< 
so, i just went for foot massage with Ir (I slept there, it was nice... trust me!) and had some pieces of salmon sushi at Sushi Tei... then hang around the mall, and finally got 2 Ralph Laurent Polos (I paid 1 for 2 pieces of polo,coz it's 50% off.. XD~)


and I'm going to have my rest now... 
Have a good night everyone...


-Jezz

The way to 1 Railway Place, South Yarra....

I suddenly found this photo in my camera files...
I took it on the way home from RMIT...
The way i used to pass for 2 years living overseas...
I just read Mk's blog, telling that he prepared breakfast with his house mates, etc...
n I just keep silent here...
I miss those moments... Living with friends...
where we're faraway from families and we have to learn how to help each others... also, learn how to be independent...
and again...
I MISS MELBOURNE! 
a place where i could express everything freely...


-Jezz

Reunion Day...

As planned, I'm going to have a gathering with my primary school friends... I called it as Jakarta Reunion, September 2009... I'm kinda excited, coz some of us are separated around 9 years without meeting each others... as everyone knows, Jess is a well-planned person... but, this time, i planned well for the reunion (as i'm the event organizer) but I DUNNO WHAT TO WEAR... i saw my wardrobe, inside has many many clothes... but, i can't decide which one i should wear... realizing that most of them are outdoor outfits I used to wear in Melbourne before... and it's a BIG NO to wear them for a reunion... >,<


Anw, i dreamed bout sumthing really bad yesterday nite...
here's the story... I was in the plane, with some of my friends.. I walked along the aisle and wished to sit with my others friends.. there're just 3 seats in a row near the right side window, and 2 of them were taken... just 1 left near the aisle... and i decided to sit there... but, i found that the safety belt's broken at that seat... so, i moved to the row in front... i tighten my safety belt n tried to sleep... but, suddenly announced that the plane is crashed and need emergency landing... WTH! the emergency landing failed... plane just fell... n i saw some of my friends died... Aiyaaa... hate that dream!


It's just 6 a.m now...
think i'm going to bed again for another 1-2 hours sleep...


-Jezz

Things happened...

I just can't understand the things happened at once within this 24 hours...

at 1st... would say thank you so much to Av & Dj for listening to me...

Shocking nite... well yea... i thk i dun need to mentioned what happened last nite...

Good to know that, mate... and thank you for that...

I hope nothing would change, as we agreed to put this friendship above anything else...

Like what I've told ya.. to like/love sum1 isn't a sin, isn't a mistake...

Dun be scared of me running away from you only because of that... see, i'm still myself as usual.. =D

Another thing this morning...

Can u imagine that i dropped tears in the office while my boss was here??? >,<

I hate being in a fight, especially with a best friend of mine...

and what i'm wondering now, "what am i for you???"

do i complain if u call me early in the morning or late at nite?? or do i complain if u share ur thoughts and feelings with me???

or u think that i dun care bout u... IDK... i just have no clue for that right now...

never thought that u can be that short-minded till u said u're not going to contact me anymore, n how shallow ur point of view about how a friendship is... n again WHAT AM I FOR YOU??? a friend??? or just a person u look for while u have noone to talk to???

IDK... IDK... it's up to u...

U should know that i care about you, and i do... My friend...

Done...

I have a pile of works waiting to be done...

-Jezz

09-09-09

Morning!

A good combination number of today's date... =D

makes me remember what's happened 2 years ago.. OMG... 2 years... passed faster than i thought... Okay, for those who dunno, 2 years ago (09-09-07) was the day my ex asked me to be his gf... Hahaha... at 9 pm as well...

i bet most of you will ask, why do i still need to remember that date while 2 us are broke up... =p

IDK, i just like the number...

Well guys (dedicated to anyone), i just wanna clarify... that I'M SINGLE but NOT AVAILABLE... and planning to be SINGLE for the next 2 years (except if Kingone or Zac Efron likes me - keep dreaming jess! SLAP*)...

So, I dun have any interest to date anyone right now...

all i expect is FRIENDSHIP...

I hope this's clear enough... I dun talk love... I dun talk like... but I do admire and appreciate some people around me...

Okay, enough for this morning... I'm rushing out to prepare myself to go to work...

Today's Quote:

"A lover comes and goes... but good friends stay forever..."

-Jezz

September

Happy September everyone.. =D

I'm hoping this september will be greater than the other months passed...

not only for me, but for all of you too...

I heard some good piano plays today... i dunno if it was just me who's too sensitive or what, but i could tell those songs are played by heart... and i really miss that sound...

I'm not telling where i heard those piano plays... so, if u really wanna hear, go search for it... LOL!

Having a long talk in MSN with a friend of mine last nite...

good to be the place u can share ur feeling n thought, mate...

and nice to be the one u really trust...

and, to be honest, sumtimes i just wonder what kind of relationship we're having...

not really sure if u're thinking about that, but... better dun... hahaha...

i just wanna enjoy the friendship we're having now... coz it's PRECIOUS!

Maybe enough for today...

I'm going to bed soon with my beloved Dudut & Elliot... XD

today's quote:

"a good friend is the one who appreciates your behaviour more than the way you look..."

-Jezz