I told some of my pals:
"last year (2008) was hard... the beginning of 2009 was the hardest part.... mid 2009, everything should be fine... and by the end of 2009, everything will be great..."
and here it is... June is coming, means it's mid year now.... (should i shout out loud "yayyyy"???)
i remember one of my friend told me when we're still in high school "time passes so fast when u're single..."
Thinking back bout that words, kinda true tho... It seems new year eve was just few days ago n now is almost June...
For everyone who's reading this, u might wonder why am i so excited about this mid year, June especially...
Yeah... it's the month i'm waiting for in this year... seriously, after things happened, i think June will be the rightest time to go out there, do crazy stuffs and have fun...
Coz my friends are coming... yayyyy.... do i need to mention???
alrite... here's the list... Dj, Mk, HM, Ls, Jt, Nd, etc....
Marking up my diary on which date they'll arrive... Lalalalala....
I should recover from the terrible flu before june... it's a MUST.... =p
What do i need to do next???
Keep walking on this life... ^^ 
"It's a long long journey... Till I know where I'm supposed to be...
it's a long long journey... And I don't know if I can believe...
When shadows fall and block my eyes...
I'm lost and know that I must hide...
It's a long long journey...
Till I find my way home to You... "
(Journey - Angela Zhang)
Photograph by Ian Hudiono; Location: Glenferrie Station, Melbourne. 2007.
Ir... who's busy with her archicad... well, good luck mate...
just few weeks to go... then u'll be free...
I'm counting down for your 21st anyway... (plz dun blame me for not knowing ur bday anymore)
thking what should i get u for present... Lalalala....
Mk... Just talked to u few days ago... and now i'm listening to all the songs we recorded...
LOL... i'll see u soon at Jkt, mate... =p
(dun forget my "titipan" anyway...)
Anw, I think it's enough for today... hungry and get to cook sumthing for dinner...
Today's Quote:
"Love the ones you have..."
-Jezz
I went to office this morning with swollen eyes...
n here I'm, feeling extremely sleepy...
i just wanna spend some minutes writing my blog here, just few minutes... i promise...
coz heaps of works are waiting to be done...
Well... today is exactly 3months after that day...
n I dunno what happened to my self last mid nite, that i cried out loud...
Yea... i always wished to cry out loud once as the end of my previous "love story"...
i tried to cry since last month, but i just couldn't...
then last nite, tears were just dropping from my eyes automatically...
n i feel so much better, after this 3 months, finally i could express what i feel inside...
(thx to Hb for being there listening to me)
to all my friends...
Ir, Av, Al, Dj, Mk, Hb, Dn, HM and many others who can't be mentioned one by one...
Thank you for all ur supports to me... i love you all, guys... ^^
to my beloved Bros... Wm n Wn...
who always care bout me and ask me out for sumthing fun whenever i stressed out...
after all, i should stop typing this blog... (reports are Qing... T___T )
so.. as my previous post said,
i just wanna live my life and be happy while i can....
Today's quote:
"Leave out all the rest... then FOCUS..."
-Jezz
Finally i can have a relaxing weekend...
Last 2 weeks were seriously busy and restless... haiz...
But, i just hate the time when i hv nothing to do, many kinds of though are coming to my mind...
I spent last nite talking to Hb bout what i feel these days...
n guess what, he does feel the same with me...
When people judge you from outside, without knowing how we are, they will just think that our lives are just easier then theirs...
What are they looking at are just our performances, careers, and achievements...
then they say to you "lucky you bla bla bla...." or some other similar phrases...
I'm just wondering don't they know how could things happen behind the screen....
n i feel like shouting to them loudly, "being me isn't just easy as u think!!!!"
(Five for Fighting, Superman lyrics: "it's not easy to be me...")
Pissing of... Seriously... (no names to be mentioned here)
Could you just please give me some spaces for my self n plzzzz... plzz stop stalking me like that...
I can't just spend all my time talking such unimportant stuffs to you...
Well, i have my own things to do and my own friends to talk to...
n i did mention to you, that THEY ARE MORE IMPORTANT... n they are all my priorities...
i even mentioned their names to you... *sigh....
Dj, finally u finish ur internship... lol... i thk i will be lonely staying in my cubicle during weekdays...
hahaha... but, gd on ya... u dun need to feel that bored anymore...
Anw, talking bout "paret" and life....... kinda speechless this time...
even u ask me why, u know that i dun get any answer for that...
Ir... who's busy with her 3d cad while i'm typing this... i can't wait for you to be here...
pls dun be jealous that i'm not "CAD-ing" anymore... lol
I thk Av will drag me to do his cad drawing when he's rushing everything...
HM, melbourne mue... LOL... i'm waiting for you to arrive indo... surely will pick u up at the airport mate.... ^^ dun forget my UNO flash.... =p
Al... Dj asked me to go and visit u there together... how does it sound?? =p
enjoy your break mate... ^^ n pls go back indo for next break... wakakakaka....
or either provide air ticket for me n dj to visit u... lalalalala...
at last for today...
i only have a simple wish...
i just wanna enjoy my life and be happy while i can... i'm living for today and every new days i get... "it's my life, it's now or never... I ain't gonna live forever, i just wanna live while i'm alive..."
(It's My Life by Bon Jovi)
Today's quote: "Live as u will die tomorrow and dream as u will live forever..."
-Jezz
when time passes so fast, i dun feel that i really have time for myself...
yeah... spending Mon-Fri in office (8 to 5, or even later)...
then just have 2 days off in weekend...
Wondering... is this something that i really wish to do???
Life seems monotone once i start working... (Hb told me so..)
sometimes i just dunno why am i doing this n that... why must i be like this n that...
why... why... why bla bla bla... (never ending questions)...
sigh*....
Wondering about someone... (I never wished to think bout you... but... sigh*....)
I'm not supposed to think or feel this way...
But Av just told me "you need sum1 to take care of you..."
Do I???? i even dunno n doubt bout that...
but, u do know me really well, Av...
but doesn't mean I need sum1 to take care of me, maybe sum1 I can trust, sum1 i can rely on...
(the one i never found... lol)
Almost the same condition like all of you guys, Al, Dj n Ir...
We laugh, we talk, we're doing good, bla bla bla...
n we're just PRETENDING that WE'RE FINE... (Another sigh*)
Wondering bout your words, Av...
"FORGIVE & FORGET"..
i know that's what i supposed to do... but.. but...
it's not as easy as it is spoken... T___T
but, i surely can do that... it just takes time...
Wondering to move out sumwhere else...
Thinking bout China as the next stop... hahaha... how would it be???
At the end, I'm just tired for everything happened in my life...
n still... keep wondering this n that...
Today's quote: "sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand...
And what you've been out there searching for forever is in your hands..."
- Jezz
