to close 2011

It's December!!! It's almost the end of December!!! Why is it so fast to reach the end of the year??

This post seems to be my last post for this year because I'll surely be away from my computer till the beginning of next year...

All those happened in 2011 were really great, there're things that didn't really exist in the past years: close friends' commencement, weddings & pregnancy... 

Congrats to you, HM for your commencement, I wish you all d best for every next step you take... :)

For Ir, I can't wait to see your baby boy next year... Remember, he should have your eyes, not Ben's... XD

Oh well, talking about myself who always loves December so much, this December is greater than the past one... Being proposed by my bf isn't something I expected to happen this year... *dun ask bout how did I react when he pulled out the ring ~ it's embarrassing >.<

I'll be back to hometown tomorrow morning and heading to Hongkong in 4 days with my family + my fiance...

Let's close this year by being grateful for everything we've got and passed...

Happy Christmas and have a great new year everyone... :)

-Jezz

all berry bang!

Can you imagine how sweet it was when you just landed from a kinda-terrible-flight then you found your loved one waiting for you with a big cup of your favourite juice on his hand??
That's what happened to me last Thursday when I was just landed in Kuala Lumpur... =D
*thank you, darl... You're much sweeter than the Boost's All Berry Bang... (if you want to know, All Berry Bang is my favourite juice from Boost Juice Bars - it's the mixture of strawberries, raspberries, blueberries, apple juice, TD4 low-fat strawberry yogurt & ice - and sadly, there's no Boost in Jakarta).

3 days in KL felt like nothing, I didn't feel like going back to my routine and of course, I hated it when I had to wave good-bye to my bf before flying back to Jakarta...
This time wasn't as bad as usual since I still have the CGK - KUL ticket for this Thursday night.. #lifeisgood

-Jezz

useless

Now I understand that people who are in the same condition got closer quickly... Oh yes, who wants to stay alone?? So then I might start my post with the phrase "I wonder if this kinda thing happens in everyone's life"...
Life isn't always perfect... There were times when we felt like we were the happiest people on earth and also times when we thought that the pains we felt were worst...
How am I feeling now?? Useless...
Useless for not being able to do things I want to do... Am currently hoping that situations may treat me more friendly - those I want to do are so simple and why they have to be so hard to be done?? sigh-sigh-sigh*

It's been 2 weeks since I moved to my new office - that means I have to leave home 1 hour earlier in the morning and arrived home 1-2 hours later than usual so then I need to sleep and wake up earlier every weekday... I do know that the distance between me and you isn't as close as before when we got less time to talk to each other because we're getting busier and busier... As what I've told you, I should've changed my question from "how's your day?" to "how's your week?" (another sigh*)
Somehow, there may be times when I prefer to stay silent, not because I don't want to talk to you but I don't dare to hear those disappointments of how you couldn't get what you've expected because of me... And of course, my crying voice isn't something you want to hear as well...
I'm lost for not knowing what to do to make you feel better... I feel totally useless these days...
It might sound really easy to just get a plane ticket and fly there to see you, but reality isn't any simple as it's said... I'm sorry...

I miss you... Friday please come faster...
-Jezz

Melb oh Melb...

I keep looking at the clock - seems like the clock isn't working now... When the hell is 5pm??
Oh well, I know I'm not supposed to yell that way, but having everything done early at the office sucked...

Talking to one of my best buddy who's now back to Indonesia makes me miss Melbourne even more... I could see how everything has changed from the past, there will be no more staying up late for jamming or supper together though we're both living in the same area now... *sigh
The feeling of how much I love and miss Melbourne might sound so lame, but I can say that a part of my soul stays there - I believe that Mk (and so do others who've left Melbourne) might feel the same way too...

-Jezz

McFlurry

I guess everyone is familiar with this thing:

Oh yes, it's an Oreo McFlurry... and what makes it so special??

I just arrived home few hours ago after having a super great weekend in Malaysia with my loved ones: my bro + his gf and of course, my bf... =)
I thank God for sending me this AWESOME guy into my life... I cant tell how much my life has changed throughout this 8 months... I've stopped moaning and complaining that life sucked like what I've done in the passed years... Though there're still tears, what I'm having now is a GOOD life...

When 2 days of weekend felt like a minute, I kept crying when you were there at the airport accompanying me waiting for the flight... I could see sadness in your eyes when you tried so hard not to shed a tear... You just kept trying to cheer me up by feeding me the Oreo McFlurry we shared...
Now, am sitting in front of my vaio at my room looking at you still wearing the same green t-shirt you wore to airport earlier... And I am still crying...

-Jezz
ps: you are sweeter than the McFlurry... =) *luv ya*

intolerant

I know what I've just done was totally wrong... Yes, I do know that...
I blame myself for being so intolerant for some cases...
I blame myself for being so inflexible...
I blame myself for being too sensitive...
I blame myself for complaining too much...
I blame myself for being too good in finding reasons for things I don't want to do...
I need to change... Yes, I do...

-Jezz

a messy post

When doctor and people say that stress is the start of every disease, it's true... I got sick very easily whenever chunks of thoughts stormed my mind... sigh*
I know there are ways in this life that can't be walked on, no matter how we wanted to be on that way...
Knowing the truth of how complicated this life is makes me sick... I do see that there're thoughts needed in every single decision made... What I am wondering is: am I not mature enough for making a decision for my own life? Well, oldies might think that I am too young so then I don't know many things happened in life... It's not me who doesn't want to follow what they say, but don't they realize on how life's changed?? How the world and lifestyle have changed nowadays??
Oh gosh, I'm lost... Lost in the middle of nowhere...

-Jezz

billionaire

Living in a world where money rules everything isn't easy remembering that making (or saving) money is an uneasy thing to do... Looking at how gadgets are quickly updated, I feel lost in the middle of advanced technology nowadays...
I guess, I really need to get a new smart phone since my Blackberry is so unfriendly lately... sigh*
Well, forget about those technology stuffs...
Helping one of my best friend who's getting married this year makes me start to think and calculate how much money is needed for a wedding... I can tell it's a HUGE spending, especially if you want to make it really special...

"I wanna be a billionaire so effing bad...."

-Jezz

China 2011

I just arrived home last week after a SUPER tiring 12 days trip to China... Well, I guess I have to remind everyone that I went there NOT for vacation... It's a business buying trip of the company I am working at... So then do not think that I had so much fun during the trip... The trip was horrible that I didn't sleep and eat well, till there were days that I had to work from 9am to 11pm and no rest during weekend...
Talking about what I've underlined above, I had KFC almost everyday in China (my bosses are Muslim so they picked KFC as the safest one)... I can tell that I tried the KFC in every single city I dropped by (Shanghai, Nantong, Haian, Guangzhou, Tianjin) except Beijing... I dunno if this is a good thing or not, but in some cities except Shanghai, I saw CRAB in the KFC menu list... *wondering if KFC is now Kentucky Fried Crab*
I was thinking that maybe I should make a review about China's KFC, since it tasted different between one city and another... Should I??
Other than that, I have nothing special to share about the trip... *poor me*

-Jezz

precious one

I suddenly remember the time when I couldn't take my eyes off of your face, the time when I could see my reflection in your eyes...
If there are words to describe how precious you are for me, I would've typed it here...

- Jezz

over-reacted

My tears dropped at the same time as the rain started to pour...
That was my first tear after i-cant-remember-when-was the latest time I cried... I never thought that myself's really fragile...
Doctor said I'm counted as the one who gets stressed out easily and I admit that... Somehow, I make simple things to be complicated by thinking too much...
People, I beg you please to be more carefree... You have your own business to be taken care of, so then please DO NOT bitch about others' business, especially when you don't know the complete story...

I wonder if I should really care bout what others say about me...

-Jezz

a cup of tea

I didn't see the sun at the time I woke up this morning, not even now... The sky keeps being cloudy these days and the weather's so unpredictable... I'm not feeling really well this morning, I felt cold without my air-con turned on... Oh well, thanks to this shitty weather... I staggered walking to brush my teeth and wash my face, then made a cup of tea for myself... Hey, the tea saved me... The mixture of hot water and some leaves made me feel so much better...
Opening Photoshop and I'm back to work...
Have a good week ahead... =)

-Jezz

80 : 20

It's Sunday 5:45 a.m. and I'm awake... The rain is pouring heavily outside... I just realized that I haven't posted anything this year while there are many things happened... I wonder if I am really busy till I have no time to drop by my blog...
Nothing much to share, really... Except the part of what I heard from the radio about 80:20 theory...
Satisfaction is what people hardly reach... They keep searching for the perfect ones for their lives... When somebody already get the 80% of what he's searching for, he'll keep looking for the rest 20% he never gets... There's no impossibility for that person to leave the 80 he owned and go for the 20 which might lead him to a repentance... So, are you going to be that person??

-Jezz
(waiting for the end of January)