a messy post

When doctor and people say that stress is the start of every disease, it's true... I got sick very easily whenever chunks of thoughts stormed my mind... sigh*
I know there are ways in this life that can't be walked on, no matter how we wanted to be on that way...
Knowing the truth of how complicated this life is makes me sick... I do see that there're thoughts needed in every single decision made... What I am wondering is: am I not mature enough for making a decision for my own life? Well, oldies might think that I am too young so then I don't know many things happened in life... It's not me who doesn't want to follow what they say, but don't they realize on how life's changed?? How the world and lifestyle have changed nowadays??
Oh gosh, I'm lost... Lost in the middle of nowhere...

-Jezz

billionaire

Living in a world where money rules everything isn't easy remembering that making (or saving) money is an uneasy thing to do... Looking at how gadgets are quickly updated, I feel lost in the middle of advanced technology nowadays...
I guess, I really need to get a new smart phone since my Blackberry is so unfriendly lately... sigh*
Well, forget about those technology stuffs...
Helping one of my best friend who's getting married this year makes me start to think and calculate how much money is needed for a wedding... I can tell it's a HUGE spending, especially if you want to make it really special...

"I wanna be a billionaire so effing bad...."

-Jezz

China 2011

I just arrived home last week after a SUPER tiring 12 days trip to China... Well, I guess I have to remind everyone that I went there NOT for vacation... It's a business buying trip of the company I am working at... So then do not think that I had so much fun during the trip... The trip was horrible that I didn't sleep and eat well, till there were days that I had to work from 9am to 11pm and no rest during weekend...
Talking about what I've underlined above, I had KFC almost everyday in China (my bosses are Muslim so they picked KFC as the safest one)... I can tell that I tried the KFC in every single city I dropped by (Shanghai, Nantong, Haian, Guangzhou, Tianjin) except Beijing... I dunno if this is a good thing or not, but in some cities except Shanghai, I saw CRAB in the KFC menu list... *wondering if KFC is now Kentucky Fried Crab*
I was thinking that maybe I should make a review about China's KFC, since it tasted different between one city and another... Should I??
Other than that, I have nothing special to share about the trip... *poor me*

-Jezz

precious one

I suddenly remember the time when I couldn't take my eyes off of your face, the time when I could see my reflection in your eyes...
If there are words to describe how precious you are for me, I would've typed it here...

- Jezz

over-reacted

My tears dropped at the same time as the rain started to pour...
That was my first tear after i-cant-remember-when-was the latest time I cried... I never thought that myself's really fragile...
Doctor said I'm counted as the one who gets stressed out easily and I admit that... Somehow, I make simple things to be complicated by thinking too much...
People, I beg you please to be more carefree... You have your own business to be taken care of, so then please DO NOT bitch about others' business, especially when you don't know the complete story...

I wonder if I should really care bout what others say about me...

-Jezz

a cup of tea

I didn't see the sun at the time I woke up this morning, not even now... The sky keeps being cloudy these days and the weather's so unpredictable... I'm not feeling really well this morning, I felt cold without my air-con turned on... Oh well, thanks to this shitty weather... I staggered walking to brush my teeth and wash my face, then made a cup of tea for myself... Hey, the tea saved me... The mixture of hot water and some leaves made me feel so much better...
Opening Photoshop and I'm back to work...
Have a good week ahead... =)

-Jezz

80 : 20

It's Sunday 5:45 a.m. and I'm awake... The rain is pouring heavily outside... I just realized that I haven't posted anything this year while there are many things happened... I wonder if I am really busy till I have no time to drop by my blog...
Nothing much to share, really... Except the part of what I heard from the radio about 80:20 theory...
Satisfaction is what people hardly reach... They keep searching for the perfect ones for their lives... When somebody already get the 80% of what he's searching for, he'll keep looking for the rest 20% he never gets... There's no impossibility for that person to leave the 80 he owned and go for the 20 which might lead him to a repentance... So, are you going to be that person??

-Jezz
(waiting for the end of January)