...missing...

It's been almost 3 weeks since the latest time i heard ur voice, F....
Nothing changed... still sweet as before... ^^
What i'm thinking now is "why should i call you before??"...
just to let u know that i get a job???
n u told me that u're at her place... *sigh*
i thought i'l be fine with ur new relationship now...
but, it's just hurt me whenever i get to know about it...
Silly... n once again... i shouldn't have called u before... =(

I talked again to u just now... i felt weird...
the way we talk is just too different from before...
same voice, same person, different way....
seems u're busy... good luck for everything then... =)
i always wish all the best for u, F...

as u gave me a song that represents my feeling before...
Here is a song for you, which is representing ur feeling (maybe)...
Demi Waktu - Ungu
Aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
Yang kini hadir diantara kita
Namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
Yang slama ini temani hidupku
Maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
Dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
Maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu
Seandainya bila ku bisa memilih
Kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
Mungkin semua tak kan seperti ini
Dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
Membawa aku dalam kehancuran


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Al, seems we dun hv much time to talk these days... hahaha... gud luck for ur midterm n assignments... i believe that u can do ur best n pass anything... haha... u should be waiting for spring break... =)

Av, thx for ur time accompanying me last monday.. haha... i did hv lotz of fun with u... =D
thking bout ur words... n wondering... how come u know excactly how i am... LOL... remembering ur words before, about "time will tell"... i can feel it now... the truth came out one by one... n it made everything just clearer than before... Thx for ur advice n stuff, mate... =)

It's just my 5th day in Indo after i left Melbourne... n it feels like i've left for months or even years...
I'm missing the time i've spent in Melbourne so much.. T___T

Believing... that everything gonna be alrite... it's just the matter of time...
be strong... be tough...

-Jezz